Alacant/Alicante

The cormorant,
no better
than he needs be,
eyes me with
faux recognition

before slicing
the front porch
of clear shallow
water
we share –
me to watch,
him to fish.

If he is not from
Holland,
and wintering
here,
like I am,
some of the gulls
are.

—–
One gull, confused

(as I am
by four
languages)

by the accents
of light
and shadow
in Alicante/Alacant,

picks up a rock
and
drops it
on a mussel.

The rock does
not break.

—–
Waves,
more memories
of waves

than real surf,

fast break
along the edges
of forever

ample rocks.

—–
The cormorant
watches
me
watching
gulls.

—–
When you
make
your living
sticking out
your neck

under seas
and lakes,

then you must
see more
cormorantly
than I
or the fat
northern tourists
in that
dusty car do,
or those
short people
in that nearby steep
village do,
or those
tall-backed
Barceloneans
do.

—–
I thought
sea fish
appealed
to the
cormorant’s
taste,
and all
the mussels
were
for me.

I am gulled.

—–
Four men,
of whom the tall
are Spaniards
and the short
are English
on the dole
and
in tax exile,
walk back
and forth
in the
tangible
tangerine
sun.

—–
The top
of Alacant/Alicante
is a very old fort
that I take
in one minute,
relaxed,
by lift.

—–
It is cold
for this month’s norms.

Norwegians take a dip.

The notary who plays
on the beach

with his children

keeps
his coat on.

Fine Night Music

We’re dancing slow.  I hope the music never stops.
The steps you executed on the stage
are muted here with me, just subtle hops
the others hardly see.  You’ll be the rage
of critics who reviewed your play tonight.
But in this brown Café your pas de deux
blends fine with mine.  Times like this I love you.

You’re back so life is grand.  Please just hold me.
Your back against my hand is warm and strong;
the exercises work.  You look eighteen
but years more interesting.  It was wrong
to separate.  I’m still not right.
But in this brown Café your pas de deux
blends fine with mine.  Times like this I love you.

I know this city’s music, how its notes
attract us dancers, make us want it all.
It’s your turn on the high wire.  Jostling boats
of patrons call you.  They’re your fans.  Don’t fall.
But in this brown Café your pas de deux
blends fine with mine.  Times like this I love you.

Cloud Stream Fog Morning

Child waves
from car ahead.
She knows me then. Do I?
Who hangs here locked away behind
my eyes?

My eyes
see pain, chilled rain,
last waves, your laughed-at plans —
yet never look with any sense
at me.

Gray chill.
Men’s eyes cast down,
hands tending bending rods.
Cloud Stream hides golden fish as old
as God.

What are
these dire dead sounds
in dense fog near my head?
Youth dreams that toll away? My screams?
They go.


Cloud Stream Fog Morning appeared in March 1996 on the Aha!Poetry website and is still there.

Bar Things at the Noon

I write away this morning and my life.
Merlot appeals and all the afternoon
goes gliding down a river that is rife
with might-have-beens and barkings at the moon.
These words aren’t foreign; they make perfect sense
in the places and vague humours where I live
among imagined pasts and precedents.
The wine ignites quiet memories that give
patinas to reflected pallid lives.
I tell them nightly till I think they’re true.
Perhaps they are. Realities have size,
the way gods do, depending on how you
describe them, and on how much true belief
you muster for them. Aspirin brings relief.